Description
What if that dark sweet amber pain, mistaken for trouble—
is the next true step?
If we’re paying attention, something in us knows: Things aren’t okay. Pretending they are is exhausting. And not liberatory.
We Go to the Sea to Scream is a 5-week journey for those who can feel it all bubbling—grief, rage, heartbreak, confusion, love—and don’t want to numb out or carry it alone anymore. Through embodied practices, council circle, writing/expressive arts, and invitations to earth practices, we explore grief as a form of love, rage as devotion, and unraveling together as a doorway into belonging.
We probably won’t fix or solve anything, but we are likely to be more human again, remembering how to stay with the trouble, together. We also aren’t “processing emotions” or doing therapy, even if it may feel therapeutic. We are here to restore our capacity to feel, express, and connect in a world that hurts, so that we are better able to show up in our lives.
Grief as an invitation to be part of life again…
In part emerging from the field of the poetry collection We Go to the Sea To Scream (all participants will receive a digital download as a part of the course, and a paperback copy when released), this journey invites us to touch what we’ve been holding at a distance, to be witnessed, to give voice to what trembles underneath, and to listen for the ways life is calling us back into deeper belonging.
Each session unfolds as a living rhythm:
- arriving into the body as it is—numb, tender, overwhelmed, alivew
- listening (to poems, to each other, to what is breaking through)
- opening space for honest expression—grief, rage, love, confusion, the unsayable
- meeting the more-than-human world as witness, mirror, and accomplice
- creative practices that give voice and movement to what we carry (writing, sound, gesture, simple ritual)
- a quiet return into listening, integration, and the question of how we stay in relationship
Some sessions will get us outside in our respective places. Some will take us somewhere just as wild, inwardly.
Join if you’re tired of numbing out and are longing to feel more connected
and in honest contact with what is alive in you and the world.
Our Journey:
Week 1: Time to Touch It
Theme: Making contact with what’s been paved over
Week 2: The Body That Remembers How to Wail
Theme: Remembering how grief moves
Week 3: Rage as Devotion/Rage in Beauty
Theme: Honoring the Fire that reveals what we care about
Week 4: The Great Unraveling
Theme: Staying present as the old stories come undone
Week 5: The Listening Field
Theme: Going Forth With Nos and Yeses
…and sometimes, when I’m roared out, I hear:
“come back to me…”
In-between sessions: simple invitations for embodied and nature-based practices—ways to continue feeling, expressing, and staying in relationship with what is moving within you and in the living world around you.
As a way to anchor what moves through us, we’ll tend a small Grief & Rage Altar and chart our Wailing Lineages—remembering how grief and expression have been carried, contained, or silenced across generations.
What this space might open:
- a deeper capacity to stay with what you feel—without turning away
- a more honest relationship with grief, rage, and love as they move through you
- renewed aliveness in the body, even in the midst of what hurts
- language—and voice—for what has been hard to name or express
- simple earthy practices for feeling, releasing, and staying in relationship in daily life
- a subtle but real shift from holding it alone → being in it together
It was finally time to touch it…
DATES: 5 Fridays, July 24 – August 21
TIME: 9:00AM- 11:00AM Pacific Time | 11:00AM-1:00PM EST
Online | Sliding scale $150 – $240
(Note: Limited to 8 to ensure intimate and empowering space)
Register here, or VENMO: RyanVanLenning with the note “” and a good email for zoom link.
maybe not enough to hold it all,
but just enough to stay human.
—from ‘No Amount of Miles’, We Go to the Sea to Scream)
My name is Ryan Van Lenning, Founder of Wild Nature Heart, and I am an earth-lover with a deep desire to be of service in the work of re-connection, re-membering, and re-inhabiting the animate web of life.
My life changed when I really started listening and apprenticing to Water and the seasons. I started Wild Nature Heart to support people at a crossroads to re-connect with the wisdom of both inner and outer wild nature, to live their soul callings into the world, and to assist in the work of repairing broken belonging. If I had to summarize our work for this time: Compost Empire and re-surface all it has paved over. I believe each of us has unique gifts that the world needs as we birth new imaginations and ways of being beyond Empire, and I love mirroring people’s stories as they deepen into their wholeness and next aligned steps.
I am a threshold guide and barbarian poet of the Great Turning (author of several collections of poetry, including Re-Membering, From Inside These Wild Ones, One Bright and Real Caress, An Ambitious Silence, Trust the Ceremony, F*ck the Ceremony, and Trust the Ceremony, Then Yeses Come Bubbling, Within the Cave Something Pulses, Moon Has a Long Memory, Kiss Me A Huckleberry, and High-Cooing Through the Seasons: Haiku From the Forest). Two new poetry collections, Becoming Beautiful Barbarians and We Go to the Sea to Scream, will be out in fall 2026. A compost pile disguised as a book and field guide to outgrowing Empire in our bodies and imaginations, Composting the Spell of Empire: 40 Trickster Invitations for the Great Unraveling, will be released in early 2027.
I am trained as a rite-of-passage/wilderness ceremony guide through the School of Lost Borders, certified as an Ecotherapist through The Earthbody Institute, where I teach the Level 1-3 ecotherapy courses, and am a Certified Wilderness First Responder through Foster Calm. Prior to moving to California 18 years ago, I taught Comparative Religion, Philosophy, and Environmental Ethics at Sinclair College in Ohio. I live among the forest and rivers in northern California, ancestral Wiyot and Yurok land.
My current apprenticeship is to fire, seeds, composting, and emergence, and I like cinnamon ice cream, fantastic fungi and lovely lichen, and river ottering.
Recent Appreciations:
“Thank you so much Ryan for a wonderful two months together! Your course provided so much new excitement and inspiration for me. It was really eye opening and truly deepened my sense of ecological connection. Thank you for guiding us through this beautiful course.” —Nicola Gailits, Deep Belonging (Winter 2025)
“I have worked with Ryan in different courses and contexts, both virtually and in person on the land. I find him to be a skilled guide, gentle but powerful, who creates invitations to experiences that provide safety to swim in liminal spaces where deep work blossoms into growth, all in the absence of ego. Not only is Ryan very knowledgeable but he listens deeply and provides mirroring that leaves you feeling seen and honored. The spaces he creates encourage productive struggle and growth with a healthy dose of play.” —Kim Bielmann, Deep Belonging (Winter 2025)
“Ryan’s facilitation was superb. I felt his presence like a steadfast oak, and his ability to hold and meet everything that was brought to class was refreshing. He held the space with a lot of grace and created time for us to meet the grief & pain that lives beneath all that paves over it. It was more than just being given information – he invited us into embodied states of being with the wisdom, and created a structure which offered us to meander like streams through different ideas and concepts together.” —Participant, Level 1 Ecotherapy, Spring 2025
“Thank you for your dedication to this work and for modeling new/old ways of being in leadership and community! I gained a sense of companionship on the journey of exploring some of life and death’s biggest questions. The community formed in the group gave me a glimpse into how we can come together to unlearn, deconstruct, remember, and create more natural and balanced ways of being and relating. One of my biggest take-aways is understanding belonging as something inherent rather than “found” or “earned”. Being witnessed and witnessing others after our solo time on the land was very powerful and deeply meaningful to me on my/our journey.”—Leslie Hammer, Deep Belonging in the Great Turning (Fall 2022)
“This course turned out to be a transformative journey that nurtured intimate bonds with fellow humans while fostering a profound connection to the earth, instilling a deep sense of belonging. Through the exploration of the perils of industrial…it gently re-awakened and inspired me to courageously offer my own unique gifts in resisting systemic oppressions and championing the Great Turning.” – Participant, Level 1 Ecotherapy Course, The Earthbody Institute (Fall 2023)
“Ryan created a welcoming environment that fostered a culture of connection, curiosity, and creativity. I so appreciated the passion that Ryan offered in his facilitation; he models to us the possibility of bravely taking steps to live our callings!” – Gemma A., Participant in Threshold: Earth Intimacies (Spring 2024)
“Ryan is absolutely fabulous! He is engaging and culturally sensitive. Ryan is truly gifted. I am grateful to have had him as an instructor for this course.” — Participant, Level 1 Ecotherapy (Spring 2025)
“Ryan is an amazing human being and teacher. This course will nurture your soul, challenge you, and open up new ways of seeing yourself and our wonderous planet. I will definitely be signing up for another Wild Nature Heart experience!” —Rob Daroff, MD, Deep Belonging in the Great Turning (Fall 2022)
“I loved this course! This is the second course I’ve taken with Ryan and both times I felt affirmed and supported as he led us on a journey delving into themes of belonging, being, grieving, healing, and growing. Ryan encouraged us to engage with the more-than-human-world on an intimate level of discovery and connection thus cultivating a more earth-centered life. I highly recommend this course to anyone seeking a deeper connection with self and with the natural world.” —Cecelia Futch, Deep Belonging in the Great Turning (Fall 2022)
“Ryan was FANTASTIC. He was knowledgeable and most importantly, a great listener and guide. I greatly admired his mirroring skills, which have clearly been learned from Mother Nature herself. I have learned so much from Ryan and look forward to incorporating his techniques into my practice as well.” — Participant in Spring 2021 Earthbody Institute Ecotherapy Certificate Course
“I find myself repeatedly touched by the depth of your caring for Earth and all her beings and by your dedication to practice and evolving new pathways of relationship and culture. I am moved by the presence that you bring to deep listening and your willingness to explore different perspectives. Your ability to express through poetry and action what’s in your heart and your desire for healthy relationship among all beings is a source of inspiration for me.” —Marianne B. Rowe, MS, LMFT, Summer 2022 Level 3 Ecotherapy Training, Earthbody Institute
“Ryan’s well-designed course on Deep Belonging for the Great Turning was just what I needed at a stressful time in life. The facilitation, knowledge and materials shared were generous and truly a gift to enhance my nature connection and learn about myself. This course also provided support for a solo experience which was rich and rewarding. I appreciated being in a group and connecting with other like-minded people.” — Lezlie Scaliatine, Psy.D, California, Deep Belonging for the Great Turning Course Participant
“Ryan is a very thoughtful and sensitive instructor. His background in teaching and poetry, along with his ability to effectively “mirror” our stories about our journeys make him an excellent facilitator. Ryan helped us to organize our thoughts and feelings in this politically and environmentally challenging time, gave us hope, and guided us towards developing a personal plan for coping with the future of our planet.”
— Nan S., California, Deep Belonging for the Great Turning Course Participant
“Thank you again Ryan for your mentorship prior to this quest of mine. You empowered me to trust in myself, in the wild, and in the ceremony and it seemed so fitting to receive these gifts of yours just prior to a decent. I love and am sincerely grateful for your poem. It certainly helped give me courage to unflinchingly make those leaps over trees and off every known cliff and will continue to do so. I feel super motivated to continue on this path of mine and stay open to all the wild mysteries that present themselves within myself and within this more-than human world of ours. And to taking the next steps in unfurling my own gifts and presenting them to the world.”— Brady W., Wisconsin, 1-on-1 Ecotherapy Client and Course Participant
“This course is a deep-dive across 6 weeks. Ryan’s skill and generosity of spirit has guided me through a variety of themes and practices that have been both thought-provoking and empowering. I’ve valued this time immensely, and the abundant materials provided will keep me moving through this journey for a long time to come. I’ve developed a richer relationship with my Urban Wild environment in very unexpected ways, and for that I am so very grateful.” —Claire (United Kingdom)
